wow

I did not realize how long it has been since I updated this thing. So all of my test results came back normal. which meant our little girl was sick. we sat down with the doctor who felt comfortable doing another IUI. I on the other hand could not put myself through all that just to end up with the same outcome. So we decided to take a break from our treatments and when we are ready come back for IVF. I really needed to get my head clear and get back in the game. Hard enough to get beat down once but then to get back up and brush it off and get beat down again i need a break.

Also, around this time there was a house near my mom's house that I have always eyed went on the market. We decided to put in an offer and see where it went. Well the house is now ours. it is a total renovation and we are pretty busy with that. not to mention it has sucked us of our savings. This is completely worth it because now our future children will have a house to come home to.

I am going for acupuncture and for 3 months (hopefully to be 4 in the next few days)I have ovulated on my own. I feel good. Timing hasn't worked out well for us to have intercourse but it is so exciting to see my ovulating and menstruating in a normal cycle. So who knows, maybe (yea I can dream) we will be one of those miracles that happens on its own because we were not thinking of it (even though I don't know how i will ever stop thinking of it)

Oh and also to make the knife wound hurt a little more. Not only did i receive coupons for diapers. I got formula delivered to me AND the cord blood registry was wondering if i was still interested. Thanks, but no thanks. Yet again i will be better once were past Feb. 17th.

Strange to think this time last year I hoped 2010 would be a better year than 2009. Well I was wrong. We still don't have the child we always wanted. But on the brighter side we do have our new house. if it doesn't work out I will just get a puppy.