2nd anniversary

so yesterday was our 2nd wedding anniversary. my how the years have flown. I said to the hubby "boy time flies when you're having fun huh?" he said "what fun?" ohh fun like "lots of vacations and sightseeing! and we did indeed have lots of trying to make babies..and did make two babies and undergo lots of fertility testing" lol that has been such fun. all in all i could not have asked for a better husband by my side. the complete opposite of me. The one who keeps me grounded and reminds me of what is real in life is and not where my mind can lead me.

i have to vent for a second. i cannot stand people who complain about being pregnant. PLEASE SHUT UP. I would give anything to be in your shoes. I would give anything to be full term and complain that i am "uncomfortable" or my baby is growing off the charts.

These are the things that make me angry. because i have learned to truly appreciate those things. AND the last couple of weeks when i have been so tired and nausea had hit. yes, i did feel bad. but i embraced it and appreciated it.

so as i sit here with my cramps to remind me of our latest loss i will just continue to hold onto hope that we will someday soon be holding our much anticipated and appreciated baby in our arms with more love than this kid has ever dreamed.

my thyroid came back at 1.19 and that is perfect. just gonna keep on my synthroid and await our newest test results to come back. been giving it some more thought and i think i am moving towards being ready for the 3 letter word we've been putting off as our "last resort"...ivf.

Tomorrow i will be trying accupunctor and on thursday will be going to the chiropractor. going to fill my life with relaxing experienments on my body anything that helps!