hard day

I had some thing said to me. made me just be so sad and frustrated. I want what I want. I go for what I want. I have always had to struggle for EVERYTHING I have wanted. Why? to make me more appreciative? well I am. To be a stronger person? I am. But why do I have to be one to struggle? Maybe sometime I want something to be given to me that I don't have to fight for. I don't understand and I probably never will but today I am struggling to understand the questions I have to ask myself everyday.